I tend to be quite sensitive. Lately, my feelings were hurt even though they didn’t need to be. Someone who normally goes out of their way to be kind and generous appeared not to notice me. Intellectually, I knew it had nothing to do with me but my emotional self noticed. I didn’t think too much about the incident but later was informed about what had happened that day that I wasn’t aware of. When I heard what was going on with this person, I heard a voice in my head exclaiming “It’s not all about you, Susan”. After hearing this, my stomach calmed, my muscles unclenched, my mind stopped swirling. I was totally focused on the other person and what their day had been like. I saw areas where I could have been of help that day instead of well….doing whatever I did.
The realization was liberating. I was able to apply it to several other instances around the same time and saw things more clearly. I was reminded of the first of The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz – Don’t Take Anything Personally. I understand this concept, agree with its meaning, like living that way but I know it’s not as ingrained as I’d like it to be. I believe lessons continue to present themselves to us until we master them. Some lessons I think I’ve mastered only to have them slap me upside the head later on. When this happens, I know that there is more for me to learn and more room for me to grow. Fortunately, the lessons in life aren’t always painful or uncomfortable. The other day I was anxious about leaving the house to do some errands. Someone told me I was loved and adored and to take that out into the world with me. It worked. My anxiety subsided. This is something I want to remember more often but eventually might forget. At this point, I hope the lesson sneaks up on me again and slaps me upside the head so that I get it, I truly get it.